Some days. . .

Some days I wonder. I wonder about me. I wonder about those I love. I wonder about life. I wonder what am I really doing here. Lately these days I no longer want to be in school. I want to open my own coffee shop/candle-lotion business. . . Why you ask? I don't know really. . . I just want something new. I know God has put me at this place in my life for a very specific reason. I just can not see it right now. So I know I must continue to do my best to be all there where I am. Some days I just don't know anymore. . . It's those days I must look to God the most.
Here are some random updates from my life:

• I am now working with 2 youth groups a jr and a sr high group.
• Last Monday night at junior high youth group, the Youth pastor, Josh, shared the Gospel with the kids, and we had 2 kids accept Christ. I have made a connection with a girl named Natalie. It's so good to be available to her. She and I have similar stories so it's so easy to talk to each other.
• High school is going great as well
• I love my girls at school. We have been having so much fun together. I wouldn't trade some of the moments we've had for the world.

Until Next time,
James 1:2-5

Life as I know it. . . right now

Well, I started my 3rd week of school yesterday. God has been really doing something. As the school year started, I barely had enough money to get my foot in the door here at FSB. I actually struggled two days before having to come back as to whether I should come back. But something told me to come back. I had enough money to get me in the door and get class notes, nothing more. Last week, I was getting worried about when I was going to be able to purchase my books so I could start my numerous reading assignments. So Tuesday at my prayer group and my section devotions, I mentioned that I was having trouble with my finances and still didn't have my books. Both groups prayed for my situation. Thursday morning, I had a package slip in my box. I was pretty darn stoked to have a package. Well I went to the office to claim it and they said, you don't have a package, you have books. My first thought was where did I leave my books at, that they turned them in. Then they pulled the books over the counter and I looked at them and they were the books I needed for my classes. God works in mysterious ways. . . 

Now on to the more serious part of this blog. . . I can't help it, but lately I have felt in a rut. I'm trying to get on and get down to it for school, but at the same time, memories of the past 2 1/2 months fill my mind. Summer was absolutely awesome. So many good things in my life came out of the summer, but I know I can not live my life in the past. So how do I move on without forgetting? My only answer is this: I just have to let go and let God take care of my mind, body, and soul. I'm also having trouble connecting with people here at school. It seems like everyone has a mask painted on so no one else sees how they truly are, myself included. I miss being able to go to someone and say, "I'm having trouble, would you pray for me?", and them not thinking I was a total nut. I miss having the close friendships. I don't know. . . Maybe it's just me. Maybe I've put my walls that so many people seemed to bypass easily this summer back up.  But I can sum it all up in 3 words: SUCH IS LIFE. I just need to focus on the here and now and not the then and there. 

Here are just some random updates:

• My mom is doing really well. She started her medicine over a week ago. She's only gotten mildly sick. PTL
• My tailbone is acting up again with all the sitting in classes, chapel, church and cars. So pray that it'll get better.
• My sister and beautiful little niece, Nyla are moving to Iowa in like a week and a half. I'm sad that I'm losing a sister and  a niece.
• I've started working with both the jr. and sr. high youth groups at the church I am attending. The kick-offs went great. I'm so glad and happy to be back with the kids. 

Until next time,

Ephesians 2:10